dry parched roots               
harnassed
held captive
where light
no longer shines
peer into our
future a
life no longer
tended
© September 2012
Renee Espriu
i drove the highway the
distance it takes to
arrive there past all
the strip malls
traffic lights stopping
red or not, giving way
to thoughts of her
carrying her in my arms
across the living room
“shush, shush, don’t you
cry” singing soft a
lullaby bouncing her
dancing as my eyes try
to close after
working the night shift
i had a bit of nap before
he dropped her off so
mom could work her job
all in a flash as i drive
the highway there
thinking of the past of
all the other years
i pull into the driveway
i wait for her to come
down the stairs and
when she does…
the tiny infant has a
bounce beneath her
step with holes
torn in her shorts
as the fashion is for
young and layered
tops and long dark
hair she tilts
her head and smiles
where a baby use to
cry in my arms
it is time to go out
shopping and spend
time for in all the years
that have come and
gone
she is still my sweet
babe in arms
my granddaughter grown
our bond remains
strong
© August 2012 Renee Espriu
Photo by Edward Weston 1939
the coastal terrain whizzes
by in my effort to catch up
to claim time as my ally
drift wood laden shores
with rocky strewn beaches
such alien distant creatures
my car picks up speed on
straightaways, slowing down
on curves the car sways
when will i reach destination
unknown a room with a key
time once again has flown
walking on the sandy beach
salt spray, shells and stone
i no longer feel alone
my thoughts weave about the
elusive tide of time’s door
plying soul and spirit’s core
reaching inside to pull my
heart throughout times’ eternity
journey’s calm is wrought
as though the sea winds have
wrapped me within their embrace
helping me again to face
a world where the essence of
time flies capturing unnoticed
years unfurling tinctured rhyme
© August 27, 2012
Renee Espriu
quintessential rhythms of life
pull at her like unforseen
threads tight and strong
like the chubby tiny fingers
connected to grasping arms
of all the children in her
past, present and future
calling her name as tears
were shed or laughter came
as words calmed their fears
quintessential rhythms of life
like breathing out and in
waking with each sun streaked
sky to watch patient each day
for the moon that will rise
to bring sleep’s calm sway
hoping that energy comes alive
as she wakes again dreaming
of bits and pieces of life
a reel on a camera fast forward
traveling at the speed of light
each year pages flipped in a
book the story not finished but
look and be quick as six decades
creep silent a tendriled vine
quintessential rhythms of life
© August 2012 Renee Espriu
Some people have grief over reaching age 30, 40 or even 50. Those were easy for me but this year is a milestone 60 years fast approaching and it is my turn to feel as though life has gone way too fast. Writing always helps.
i yearn for the simplicity
of writing
fingers wrapped ’round
pen or pencil
bringing to life
unchoreographed
 tidings
unlike walking into a
warehouse office store to
view the most admirable
‘mouse’ required in
every household
 adored
awaiting the newest owner
to purchase them
taking one home to
begin the commencement
of writing via
keyboard
until i realize there seems
to be a disconnect
 between my
un-furried friend and me
nothing moving
or seen
my anxiety growing if words
cannot flow i make my
way back to the ‘super’
warehouse office store
talking to youth
in an uproar
he pointedly states that
‘it shouldn’t be
that hard’
i point out the vast
difference in age
 setting the stage
i turn on my heel to leave
him there
returning to my
mouse companion
only to find he has now
settled in
i again yearn for the
simplicity of
writing once again
fingers wrapped ’round’
pencil or pen
© August 2012
Renee Espriu
How frustrated can one become I found out today when my mouse died and found I was lost without him. Going in search of a new one and then trying to connect him was a new experience as this one does not plug in. Go figure! It probably would have been easier to simply pick up a pen and paper but as everyone seems to be, I too am tied into the world of technology and could not begin until my mouse was once again working.
she knew her sunsets and sunrises
were firsts and lasts
that tomorrow might not come
that she had cheated fate
but once again
but hope rings true like a
glistening silver bell
to ring in another day’s noises
from the city and the calm
of making choices
she loved life and fought bravely
a battle she could not see
but could feel hidden inside
though the mirror reminded as
though but to chide
her memory of another time a
face someone elses’ now changed
she shows the world a ‘Spirit’
her body but a shell never
able to diminish it
she watches the faces of her
loved ones as they watch her for
a time heavens’ Angels beckon come
she sees sunsets and sunrises
now only she can fathom
© August 2012 Renee Espriu
Here in the Northwest a most gifted, articulate and giving woman gave up her fight with brain tumors and I offer up this small bit of prose for her. Kathi Goertzen was our Channel 4 News Anchor for many years and fought bravely for the last 14 years to overcome tumors that gave her little respite. She managed to connect with so many people, such as myself, just by us watching her report the news. She gave to her family, her community and when all is said and done herself. I wish for you many beautiful sunsets and sunrises where your “Spirit” now resides. Blessings!