Once someone told me
I was not done having affairs
I surmised its meaning
a human touch of warmth
as felt in dreams fleeting
yet years watched me falter
confused with sightless eyes
though clear with seeing
trapped me as blindness nigh
looking beyond lackluster need
striving toward pleasing
to win acceptance
in uncertainty
in platitudes shown vaguely thin
rooted amid trivial detritus
I stepped into an empty life
always out of reach
in plaintive din
I clearly discovered as late
the affairs of life I sought
walked alongside me
each step taken
each breath
of naught
are not affairs of the human kind
nor affairs of a heart of flesh
but an affair of a desperate need
to create missives with words
of light and breadth
that require none but my own
masked eyes to open and see
to cause my own spirit to soar
giving respite to my soul
without fear
nothing more
© February 2019 Renee Espriu
Image Taken From Public Domain Pictures & Created As Art
reneejustturtleflight.com 
Beautifully rich in imagery and profound. Loved it!
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Thank you so much.
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My pleasure.
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This is beautifully written, Renee – a classic. Makes me think of Emily Dickinson. I love it!
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Thank you Betty for your kind words always. I have been writing a bit more now it is getting closer to moving. I have paid the last of my rent here and am looking forward to something new. Be well, my friend.
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You be well too, Renee. And hopefully spring will be here soon to make things easier!
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This resonates with me ! Beautifully captured feelings.
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I am happy that you find words that speak to you. I hope you are doing better in your new home in Canada. Take care.
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Aggghhhhh!!! Yes!!!! The artist’s dilemma, once again, brilliantly expressed! I am so glad you are delving deeply and sharing. It’s a blessing you offer us, this resonance with introversion and expectations. Peace be with you on this new life adventure! I hope it frees you up to let your spirit soar! Aloha ❤
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Thanks for the kind considerations and I am hoping with moving to my daughter’s the end of the month, I will finally be able to create as I have always dreamed of doing. I will be having a small studio built on her property and look forward to it being a beautiful space I have long needed and wanted. Aloha!
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Excited for you! 🤗🌺❣️
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Your writing evokes much insight into both sides the spectrum of love in both the physical sense and spiritual sense.
Beautifully written.
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I believe there really cannot be one without the other in so many ways. Thank you.
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beautiful words to convey the complexity of life’s joy & sadness – well done ❤
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Thank you so much. Life is for me and has always been a complex one and I guess it shows in my writing. Be well.
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