***WATCHFUL HEART***

Blue skies & concrete planters
with trees & a watchful heart
that reaches out to touch me
to bring me close to its’ warmth

Loving hands with healing that
reach beyond skyscrapers
& miles of city life to hold me
in the embrace of their passion

Nesting birds asking for handouts
with chattering unable to overcome
the voice that calls to me from
a moment in which to hold me safe

People coming and going to ride
the moving stairs always in motion
& anyone of them could be
that one who waits for me always

Lost feathers from tiny birds remind
me of life changes that flutter in
the breeze, of changes bringing two
hearts together in a journey to embrace

© 1998 Renee Espriu

I was cleaning out yet another box of things to be either discarded or kept and came across this very old piece of prose. I wrote this to my partner of nearly 19 years now. It helps me to remember why we remain together through her struggle with cancer, now in remission, and my ultimate emergent open heart surgery to replace my heart valve. This was written long before my first real computer or the ability to access the internet to create this blog. I am still recovering and going through many life changes and hope to be more active on this site and to visit others in the near future.