she refuses to succumb
to pain anchored
inside her body like
a ship anchored to
the dockside
pulling her this way
that, up and down,
unreasonable
especially at night
pulling aside
sleepy eyes
no respect for her
life..nagging at the
dark recesses inside
forbidden corners
of her mind
waiting
she waits too for a
moment of breathe
a break in the stillness
holding her prisoner
iron bars to
bind
opens up the window
quiet now…pain will
not hear her as she
enters into the
darkness to
aspire
sleep will come and
soon she will take
flight in dreams
leaving pain and
the world
behind
© June 2012
Renee Espriu
reneejustturtleflight.com 
oh dang…when suicide is the only way to escape that pain…so tough…a raw and sensitively penned story renee…
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I guess this could be about suicide but it is actually just about deep sleep. Sometimes with my chronic pain issues it is the only thing that helps. Thanks!
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I know this feeling all too well Renee. You’ve captured it all here with this. Sometimes sleep is the only escape from pain, even if it is only for a while.
Very deep and, emotional write.
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Thanks Bren! Hard getting any sleep last night but the yard is looking better. Now, if it don’t rain than I will have my young man mow the lawn.
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sometimes dreams are our greatest respite. dreaming of flying means you want to break free of your current situation desperately.
used to have them a lot, really loved them.
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I rarely sleep deeply enough to dream but when I do it is sometimes good and sometimes not. But getting sleep is the ticket for me.
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i have read somewhere that people who sleep deeply dont dream at all. i have a lots of dreams. some good some really bad.
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Renee, I so empathise with you over this poem…. I know what a night like that is like. when sleep is far from us as Pain fills the night…
I hope that you have had a better nights sleep Renee… Sending you some thoughts my friend.. xxx Sue
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Thank you Sue! I have a young man mowing and weed eating for me now but I still have to weed the gardens and they are large so I just do a little at a time. I am trying my best to get them done as when it does get warmer the pesky things won’t grow quite so tall.
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So many people are in this very hard situation. In spite of suffering from fibromyalgia..I do manage to sleep fairly well most nights. The quiet and stillness of night and trying to sleep make pain just that more noticeable. I wish you well, Renee.
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I have had Fibromyalgia since I was a teen but now in recent years have Rheumatoid Arthritis so that seems to be a double whammy. But I have a high threshold so takes alot to get me down. I simply refuse to give in. I wish you well, also. Thank You!
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Sleep is a welcome relief from many pains
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Still loved this second time around reading it Renee.. Wishing you Many Good Nights Sleep in 2013 with less Pain and problems for you and your wonderful Family.. Hugs to you Renee Love Sue … xoxo
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