“But Why”

innocence treading in silence
listening to the whirring                          
machines a sterile room

holding a bed on wheels with
white linens blankets
covering him in sleeping

standing close to her looking
’round watching before his
hand extends beckoning him

closer to touch his to assure
him all is well as he touches
then holds the aging hand

she tells him time to leave
he wants to go home with him
but she says ‘no’ not this time

“But Why?” his brown eyes implore
she can only say he has to stay
here for awhile ’til he’s better

until they say he can go home
but he can only look at her to
implore “But Why?” looking for

answers he won’t understand as
his innocence fills the silence
he tells his grandfather good-bye

© June 2012 Renee Espriu

I am still very good friends with the man I was with for 20yrs and married to for 30yrs. He underwent major surgery this last week to repair a triple aortic abdominal aneurysm and although he has other health issues he did much better than expected. I decided to write something taken from my grandson’s experience. Kade is 4yrs old and is trying to wrap his young mind around why his grandfather is not at home where, in Kade’s eyes, he should be. We are all pleased that his grandfather is recovering nicely. I was privy to all of this but the last part when his mother, my daughter, told Kade it was time to go.

10 Replies to ““But Why””

  1. Renee, my friend, my thoughts are with you as are my healing ones sent out also, it sounds as if he has been very lucky.. Well wishes for his full recovery my friend, and Several years ago I nearly lost my hubby to an internal bleed from an ulcer it was touch and go, but they managed to stem the bleed…
    Love and Well wishes, Hugs Sue xx

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    1. Thanks so much for your healing thoughts as always. With a big family, such as I have, there is always something going on. One hopes for reprieve but life can only be lived with many twists and turns.

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  2. It’s very difficult and confusing for the children, isn’t it Renee? (bad enough for us adults) It’s good to know that your friend is recovering so well from this.

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    1. He and I have so many children and grandchildren and are better friends than we were when we were married. He is doing so well they let him go home today but he has many months of recovery ahead. Thank You for your comment.

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  3. Confusing and challenging situation for all, especially young ones that do not know anything other than love … sending healing energies and prayers for Kade;s grandfather and the entire family. Have a good week, Renee!

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    1. Kade is only four but such a ‘big/little man’. I love my children and grandchildren. Kade is the youngest and until ‘great grandchildren’ come along he is it for the grandchildren. He is a blessing, yes.

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